It’s Darling Daughter’s last day of high school. She’s done in a couple of hours.
And I’m not sad…
Prior to opening Facebook last night, I was excited for the long weekend, my weekend plans; including a day trip to Pennsylvania on Saturday and a family picnic on Monday.
Until I saw postings from parent’s on Facebook, I had no idea what time the kids were done with school. Still not sure of the time, but it’s soon. It got me thinking…
So I called Aunt Kate…
Me: What’s wrong with me?
(A loaded question, I know…)
Aunt Kate: There’s nothing wrong with you.
Me: Should I be sad, crying? Is there going to come a time when I’m a mess?
Aunt Kate: Probably not. I never got that way with Joey. (my cousin)
Aunt Kate: I think you’re more excited for her. I was the same with Joey. He had a great experience in high school. And I was excited for what came next for him.
And as I think about her theory, I think Aunt Kate is right.
Why I’m not feeling sad…
I think because she’s excited to go to college, to choose her dorm room decor, to leave the nest, I’m excited for her.
As for high school, she’s accomplished so much. She doesn’t have regrets. She played sports, joined clubs, took on leadership roles, performed in her schools show choir and was even in several school plays. She took many challenging honors/AP classes. Made friends. Had some fun.
Even did a bit of public speaking as National Honor Society President…
There is some relief…
We ALL worry about our kids. But for me, there’s some extra, added worry tied to being a single parent. Statistically, children of single parents are far more likely to have issues; emotionally, with drugs and alcohol, teen pregnancy, poor performance in school and so much more. I’m breathing a little easier knowing that one of my children has successfully navigated the difficult high school years.
Of course, I’m smart enough to know that I’m exchanging one set of worries for another!!
There’s so much to look forward to…
Daughter will soon be a high school graduate.
She’s off to college in the fall. When I do speak to her, or see her, we’ll have more to talk about. She’ll (hopefully) graduate from college. Then will be career decisions, maybe she’ll decide to get married, or have children, or move to a new city, or buy her own home. There are many more milestones to come. So many more things to enjoy.
I don’t look at her high school graduation as the end of something, it’s another beginning.
Not just for her, but for me, too.
As the children get older, I get to think about me. It’s always been about everybody else. Being a single parent hasn’t been easy. It has had moments too difficult to share here, or even to find words for.
But there have also been triumphs. I’ve gotten to figure out what type of career I want, to meet new people, try new things. I’m starting to see the end of the ‘raising children‘ phase of my life. And in many ways, that’s exciting for me. It means I have the freedom to chase after my dreams.
And children like that. They love to know their parents are happy.
Mine seem happier, when they know I’m busy, that I’ve got things going on.
Sometimes I tease Darling Daughter with this…”Just think, when you come home from college you’ll get to meet the fella who’s going to be your new stepfather…”
As you can imagine, she rolls her eyes!
I guess we can either look backward, or forward. I’ve never been one to wallow in the past. I try my best to enjoy each day, appreciate my past and my memories–and then plunge forward.
I’m not thinking “Where has the time gone?”
I’m thinking, “What a ride!”
Anybody else have a graduating senior? Your thoughts?